I just feel like I need to write about this to get it out of my system. I'm not gonna be able to sleep, cause it's gnawing at me.
I'm sorry. I wish I could do it again and think more clearly. I wish I had written back or called... or just even checked my phone in the first place. I was having a really great time and I was excited to tell you all about it, but now this will always have a twinge of regret and/or bad memories. I wish I could take it all back. I've marred my time. I wish I could make it all better and have you forget that it even happened. I wish I could erase the pain and worry that you felt. This bothers me. It bothers me that a day can be so good, but then one mistake can just put a damper on the whole thing. I'm not saying I'm depressed now, cause I'm definitely not.. I just wish it hadn't happened the way it had. I've noticed that I keep saying the word 'wish'. Wishing doesn't really get us anywhere, does it? So I guess there's really no point in it. I should be saying 'hope'. I hope you will forgive me and trust me again. I hope that you will forget and never worry again. I hope that all this regret disappears. Can we get back to where we were? Pure happiness? Pure trust? Purely carefree?
